questions

 

I saw a bunch of people doing this so I figured it’d make a good quick blog.

Here are 15 Questions to answer:
1. What do you think you can do but can’t?

Well, the thing is I try to admit when I can’t do something, so I will tell anyone who asks that I can’t sing, but that doesn’t stop me. I think I am a good poet but I’m not. I think I’m a good listener but at times I’m the worst listener in the world, so I don’t know if that counts.
2. What’s a difficult word for you to pronounce?

I had a really bad stutter as a kid and I still have remnants of it now, so word that begin with “s” “t” or “P” give me trouble. I pronounce the words “pin” and “pen” the same way and lots of people think I’m weird because of that.
3. What is a favorite TV show from your childhood?

Rugrats, Hey Arnold, Rocket Power, Early Spongebob, Boy Meets World, The Wild Thornberry’s. Pretty much anything on Nick.

4. What are your virtues and vices?

Virtues: I think I’m nice, a good friend, smart, good teacher, trustworthy, dependable.

Vices: Obsessive, always wanting to be the best, never being satisfied with myself.

5. What’s more important: love, fame, power, or money?

my ranking:

Money

Love

Power

Fame

6. If you could live in any era/time period, when would it be and why?

I’d like to live either in the 60’s or in the 40’s. Both of those times are really vital in history and I’d like to see it. But I’m satisfied with here(though I would like a time machine to see the future.
7. If you had to redo your entire wardrobe with 2 stores, what would they be and why?

Umm…Walmart because it’s cheap and Macy’s I guess because it has a lot of stuff. Clothes aren’t really my thing. I wear jeans and a tee-shirt.

8. Can you recall what you were doing a year ago on this day?

Well today is the Ides of March, so I was probably making some sort of comment about that, and since it was the Monday after spring break I was tired and I went to Calculus and skipped music class : P

9. Do you have reoccurring dreams? If so, explain?

I had a recurring nightmare as a kid which I don’t wanna get into right now and currently I have continuation dreams, where the same story will span several nights.

10. What’s your horoscope?
Virgo: This can be a time for exposing and talking about hidden, intensely private, secret, or taboo subjects. Your mind is very probing and your conversations and interactions with others are intense. Pat answers and superficialities don’t suffice now. You can be too intrusive or overbearing when stating your point of view.

11. What does your dream bedroom look like?
Big fluffy bed.

12. What position do you sleep in?
half right side half stomache, legs can’t be touching

13. Who is your favorite vampire of all time?

Dracula?

14. What are you currently wearing on your feet?

My white New Balance Tennis shoes and old socks/

15. Do you have neat handwriting? Show us!

Nope, its messy.

 

Dear Poppy,

Dear Poppy,

Today is my 18th birthday. Today I become an adult. Today is my 7th birthday without you.

I’m sorry you can’t be here and I know it’s not my fault or your fault or anyone’s fault you’re not here. It’s just the way it is.  And it sucks.

I miss you. A lot.  It’s not fair. You used to tell me that you would be there when I graduated high school. You weren’t. I’m not angry you weren’t there, but I am sad. You would have been proud of me. You were proud of me. I just couldn’t see your face. I couldn’t hear your voice or see your smile or feel your hug.  and that’s not fair.

You’d be so proud of me, turning 18 during my Sophomore year of college. You are proud of me, but I don’t get to experience it.  You would be so proud of the person I became and the person I am still becoming.

I can hear you bragging to everyone who would listen about me. But I’ll never get to actually hear that. I know you love me and are proud of me, but sometimes that’s not enough. Sometimes I need to see it, but that’s never going to happen again.

I am an adult now, but I still feel like a child. And I can still think back on fond memories of when I was a little child, and most of the happy memories are connected to you in some way.

I’m selfish in this wish, but I wish you were here again. I wish I could talk to you one more time, I wish I could see you.

But that wouldn’t be good. You were in pain and needed to go. I understand this. But it doesn’t make it any easier. It doesn’t make me feel better.

But here it is. I am now an adult. And I miss you more than ever. I have all these wonderful, awesome, amazing things happening and I want nothing more than to tell you. And you are the one person I’ll never be able to tell. I want to hear your reaction. I want to know I’ve made you proud.

I know I could never disappoint you, but I want to know I’ve done you proud. That I’ve earned the praise you gave to me and still give to me.

You always made me proud to be your granddaughter. And I want to make sure I’ve done you proud.

I think I have.

I hope I have.

Love,

Your Lorrie

To everyone else who reads this:

This is not me begging for pity or anything. I just wanted to tell my Poppy something and I wanted everyone to know how great my poppy was and still is.

If you took the time to read all of this, thank you.

Reconnections

So recently I’ve taken up looking up people I used to know on facebook. I have had a good time finding old friends and reminiscing with them.

I got the bright idea to look up the boy I had my first real, serious crush on.  I knew him from when I was 10-11 and he was 11-12. I’m almost 18 and he’s 19 now. I found him on facebook. I wouldn’t even be friends with the man he is now.

And I’m not trying to say that he became a bad person, it’s just that we became two different people. And I spent a little while trying to come to terms with the fact that one, he is totally not the same as the little boy I knew. And two, that he probably doesn’t remember me.

The little boy that the little girl in me will probably always hold a torch for, doesn’t know who I am.

And that’s ok. Really it is. I never expected to find his page and friend request him and have  him confess his undying love for me and us get married. I just wanted to send him a request and have him accept it and we could spend some time talking about the 5th and 6th grade and catching up on the basics of each others lives.

But no, I get a message from him asking if he  was supposed to know me.

It hurt, I’m not going to lie. But I deleted the message and canceled the friend request.

It’s not worth it.

But on the flipside, a family that used to live across the street from us, the Millers, called us the other day and we went over there last night and had a great time. I love reconnecting with old friends which I’ve been doing a lot lately. But I also love meeting new friends, too.

I’ve been able to be in a fairly happy social place lately, and I hope it stays that way.

xx

Lorrie

My Adventure with the Royal Family

So I just started this blog yesterday, but I had a dream that I had to share with the world.

Two nights ago, I had a dream me and my friend, Monica, were in Wal*Mart. Nothing strange there, until we ran into Prince Harry. No one besides me seemed to realize that Prince Harry was in Walmart just doing his shopping. That was the general gist of the dream, Monica and went on to buy cake mix then go make a cake, but besides our brush with Prince Harry nothing interesting happened.

Well the next night, I dreamed that I was touring Buckingham palace and Prince Harry was wondering around following the tour but trying not to be seen. I fell to the back of the group and was looking at a vase or something when someone taps my shoulder. I turn around expecting to get yelled at for standing to close to the vase when Prince Harry asks me if I want to go play the Wii with him. I reply “Sure.”

So he leads me through Buckingham palace to a big room with a big TV and a couch against one of the walls. Besides this, the room is empty. He goes and turns on the TV and the Wii and puts in Wii sports. After we make me a Mii character, we decide to bowl.

About halfway through the game, the Queen enters the room. At this point, I begin to fear that I’m going to be kicked out. The Queen does nothing but demand to be included in the next game and goes and sits on the couch and patiently waits for Harry and I to finish our game. Harry beats me by about 10 pins.

We go back to the start page and and a 3rd player and the Queen joins us. Harry tells me to try and let the Queen win, so I do and the Queen beats the both of us. We are about to start another game when Harry mentions something about Prince William being in a Polo game now, and how he better go and watch it. I am about to take this as my cue to leave when Harry asks me if I would “fancy accompanying” him to the game. I agreed and me, Prince Harry, and the Queen get on horses and ride to the game.

When we get there the game is almost over and tied. We go and sit  with Prince Charles to watch the rest of the game. Prince William makes the winning goal and we all celebrate. The five of us all ride our horses back to the palace. When we get there the Queen screams “Betcha Can’t Catch me!” and takes off running into the palace to hide from us.

The Princes are all dividing up where to look for her and they tell me just to wonder around and see if I can find her while they go and look in her favorite hiding spots.

So now I am left wandering around Buckingham Palace all alone and am starting to fear being found and thrown out. I consider leaving of my own accord, but really, who would willing leave Buckingham Palace. After maybe 20 minutes of looking, my cell phone rings. I don’t recognize the number, but I answer it. It is Prince William. Calling MY cell phone. He tells me he found the Queen and it is time for dinner and I can meet them in the dining hall.

He hangs up before I can tell him I don’t know where the dining hall is. I stand there stupidly for a minute before Prince Harry shows up to “escort” me to dinner. We make it to the dining hall and we are served dinner. I ate Pork Chops with the Queen, Prince Charles, Prince William, and Prince Harry. I then ate a cheesecake type thing for desert. It was really good, it had a orange creme sauce on it.

After dinner we went to the movie theater and watched a movie that was kinda weird and I don’t know what I was supposed to be.

The whole dream I feared that someone was going to realize that I wasn’t supposed to be there, but no one ever did. When I woke up we were just getting started on deciding what movie to watch next.

So that’s that. I had two dreams involving the royal family. It was weird.

I should be starting to study for my Calculus 3 final next friday, but I’m doing this instead. I’ll let you know if anything else interesting happens.

xoxo

Lorrie

Basic Introduction to Me

So, hi, I’m Lorrie. I’m 17, almost 18 years old. I graduated high school early at the age of 16. I’m currently a student at the University of Memphis studying Computer Engineering.

I will try to blog at least once a week, but I don’t if I will.

I don’t think I’m that interesting, but there you go.

Me wearing lots of makeup and lots of hairspray

So That’s what I look like.

Here’s a picture of me and my mom and my car, The TARDIS.

I don’t really have much else to say by means of an introduction besides you might read me mentioning my friends Hunter and Monica from time to time. They are both my best friends at this moment. Here’s me and Hunter.

Here’s Monica. I can’t find a pic of both of us where we both look good.

That’s her oldest horse Zoie.

Ummm…That’s all for now. I’ll blog later in the week and let you know what going on.